Sunday, 9 August 2015


Some nights I just wish that this all would end.
Some nights I just wish not to see my friends.

And sometimes, I wanna just talk tonight.

It's the same even if it's just a hundred miles away.

Wednesday, 5 August 2015


"I think what is dying is cultural, nominal Christianity, and I don’t think we should panic about that. I think we should see that as an act of God’s grace.”

Sunday, 21 June 2015

The Creed of Christianity

I'm surprised that I have never heard this man-made text recited ever in my life. It is the purest summary of the Christian faith, accurate enough that many leaders of the church (whom I hesitate to call pastors at times) stray from its true meaning.

Yes, the bible is sovereign. Still, man's best take on the holy books must be taken into account. If you ever want to examine a church, examine them through the principles listed in this creed. This is the Nicene Creed, it has lasted a milleniaT and I believe it will last for millenia to come.

If you are offended by Christianity and religion, I understand this is a common resentment. I urge you NOT to read on.
I believe in one God, the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth, and of all things visible and invisible;
And in one Lord, Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the Only-begotten, begotten of the Father before all ages; Light of Light, true God of true God; begotten, not made; being of one essence with the Father; by Whom all things were made;Who for us men, and for our salvation, came down from the Heavens, and was incarnate of the Holy Spirit and the Virgin Mary, and became man;
And was crucified for us under Pontius Pilate, suffered and was buried;And arose again on the third day according to the Scriptures;And ascended into the Heavens, and sitteth at the right hand of the Father;And shall come again, with glory, to judge both the living and the dead; Whose Kingdom shall have no end;
And in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the Giver of life; Who proceedeth from the Father; Who with the Father and the Son together is worshipped and glorified; Who spake by the Prophets;In One, Holy, Catholic, and Apostolic Church.I confess one baptism for the remission of sins.I look for the resurrection fo the dead,And the life of the age to come. Amen.
"And, behold, a certain lawyer stood up, and tempted him, saying, Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?"

"He said unto him, What is written in the law? how readest thou? And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself. And he said unto him, Thou hast answered right: this do, and thou shalt live." - The Gospel of Luke

Tuesday, 2 June 2015


A friend of mine brought up his post-uni travel plans. "I wanna go to Korea!" He declared to me proudly. What impressed me was that he was already planning the financial side of the trip. Starting work and setting money aside quite the realist isn't he?

It got me thinking, which countries are in my heart to visit? Where do I go, what do I look for, how do I get there?

(This post is so rambly but I'm too tired to edit it, haha. Enjoy skimming and skipping through!)

Philippines. I'd want to visit this country first, the movie that I was named for is Filipino - Cain & Abel. Their culture is pretty interesting due to their Hispanic influences - Spanish and Mexican colonisation brings together European and South American culture into the fold.

The huge plus side is they speak English there, it's an official language too! The cool way they use it is by having government speeches and textbooks in English, and various Filipino dialects used in conversation and even lectures.

Plus, great Pacific beaches, islands all over. Beaches. There is also good food, an a metro transport system that works well enough. Some might compare it to Thailand, the shopping is just different. They have huge malls which can rival the KL ones, it's even common practice to have religious services at these places - beacons of culture, aren't they!

Throughout the South East Asian region, Thailand is well-travelled and probably my next favoured destination. The other countries like Vietnam and Cambodia would be interesting too, but my connection to those countries is still weak. Singapore? Meh, it's so near I'd probably need to visit soon. Indonesia is pretty popular too, but I have yet to learn about its cities. Oh, jams get pretty bad there too, and the haze they gift to Malaysia persists throughout the year. People only bring the negative stories of the place to me, that needs to change!

Japan is another beautiful country - the land of Asian pride. They were the only Eastern country to dominantly participate in the World Wars, and until the recent decade was a huge world economy player, second to only the USA (China overtook them in '08).

One thing that really really touches me is their main media - anime. Some people regard it as teenage entertainment but I take their spiritual touch very seriously. Their imaginations of the afterlife and alternate universes never cease to blow my mind. Admittedly, I only watch a handful of anime yet I understand where they come from - they are the strongest culture in the East.

Emojis are all the rage now, and even this phenomenon was invented by the Japs. Their cars are regarded as the most durable in the world by mechanics, and they have strong impact in home appliance markets. So many things are of Japanese manufacturing, it's not even funny.

My language tutor once told me the story of the mechanical pencil. The product became successful after innovation by a metal worker, and it was called the "Sha-pu pen" because the lead remained sharp. That same inventor formed a company famous now by the name Sharp.

Most important to me - a lot of music acts seek the land of the rising sun to play concerts. Let's just say the nearest Coldplay ever got to me is a concert in Japan. A friend won a contest which included a trip there to attend a music festival which hosted the biggest pop band which is underplayed on Malaysian radio, The 1975. They actually removed their social media accounts today, but that story is not mine to cover.

Australia is a country I would love to head to again, for the sole purpose of attending Hillsong Church in Sydney. I understand religion is a very touchy subject. Still, who can fault a tremendously run organisation that is effective in creating community among members, impacting society and even record good music for use of churches worldwide?

My current pastor headed there for training, and indeed he has found a place that has sharpened his heart for people. You know people that care for people so? Those people are precious! Those people are forgiving, withhold judgement and seek to understand why people are different from them. They even enjoy talking to people about these things, and can find common ground when most abandon the conversation.

I am still considering attending Burning Man, one of the world's most impactful and unorthodox cultures. It is an art festival in which you "give freely as people give unto you". I've been hearing about it from the poker pros I watch of whom some actively attend. What the opinion about Burning Man is that it's indescribable, amazing and eye-opening.

Beyond the Asia-Pacific region, nothing much catches my eye. To be honest, it catches how small my travel budget is right now. There is so much more to the world I have yet to see. America, land of the free. England, the home of football and drinking. Spain, where many disciplines of study were perfected. South America, the most laid-back culture in the world.

And in all of this, I am ignoring the beauty that is Malaysia - the wonderful land of wet summers and clear waters on the East coast. A land where we have samples of food from all over the world at affordable prices. A nation where many races strive to unite as one. Maybe that isn't reality, but it is every Malaysian's dream. A country where cultures combine and conquer. A man can hope.

Wednesday, 13 May 2015

Things To Remember

“When you talk about your secret, you start thinking about it constructively — processing it, making sense of it, learning how to cope with it — reducing your preoccupation with that secret and taking you off the path of burden.”
How To Stop Obsessing Over A Dark Secret